Damn I haven't posted anything in two months. I doubt anyone would care to notice anyway.
I'm honestly too depressed and down to write anything of deep thought or anything brilliant that might change a life. I doubt I ever could. So WTF, let's just write a few points down. And maybe one day, I'll finish the travel posts from September that still aren't done in early November.
1. Sami Zayn/Uso is so freaking entertaining!
2. The Jets had a nice start to their season. 5-2 before that appalling loss to New England. With Buffalo coming up and road game in Foxboro, they could easily be .500 in a couple of weeks. If I had to guess, they will finish the season 8-9. Losing Breece Hall and Alijah Vera-Tucker is just too much for this offense to overcome.
3. I haven't even posted since the pathetic Mets choked away the NL East to that evil franchise in Atlanta and then lost the wild card series to San Diego. I never thought I could be so unexcited for Mets playoff baseball, but I had no juice for that series. None. Looking ahead, I would sign Brandon Nimmo and Edwin Diaz first and foremost. I don't think Jacob deGrom wants to be in New York. With that extra money, I would keep Chris Bassitt and Carlos Carrasco and sign one other starter in free agency. And the bullpen needs more help than I know what to do with. This team won over 100 games and yet it feels like they have to start all over just to be competitive in 2023.
4. As for the Knicks, well, they're just another team. Average, nothing more, nothing less.
5. I'm not ready to freak out on the Rangers, despite their lackluster start. But I don't think this team can overcome injuries, they do not have the cap space or depth to overcome them. And already, we've seen injuries to Filip Chytil, Ryan Lindgren, about 9 or 10 injuries to Vitali Kravtsov...it can get scary.
6. I'm still doing the YouTube stuff and that has taken priority over writing or just about anything else. I've passed 250 followers and we'll see how much it can grow. I'm just not comfortable going live because I don't know if I'm engaging enough or likable enough to keep dozens of people interested or entertained for an hour.
7. My mountain retreat was nice on Friday. Humpback Rocks was pretty challenging, but the views were pretty sweet. Of course, Crozet Pizza decided that day not to open till 3:30 and I had arrived at 11:30 am after 3 hours of hiking. Thanks for nothing guys, you'll never get my money. I did hit up 3 breweries and a winery in the afternoon. The Brewing Tree Oktoberfest was probably my favorite. Malty and full bodied, yet easy to drink. And they had hammocks. Beer + hammocks + mountain views = ultimate relaxation
8. Budgeting used to be fun. But thanks to the asshole occupying the White House who stole it from President Trump, it's becoming painful. Every time I go out, I wonder if I'm about to go freaking broke. I know it's my stupid paranoia, but then I get my car insurance bill or my fucking rent increase and I wonder how I'm even able to save money still.
9. Rao's is making frozen pizza now. I can't bear to buy one...it'll ruin me if I like it. And at $13 for a pizza that I could wipe out without blinking, it's probably not a wise investment.
10. The Crawling Crab 5k was ruined for me. I trained 8 weeks for that stupid race. And then it got cancelled because our area got the remnants of Hurricane Ian. I had planned to sign up for the Norfolk Harborfest. Now, I have no interest. I'm still registered for the Shamrock 8k next March, but beyond that, I don't know what I'll do. My feet can only handle so much, and truth be told, I feel I look better when I'm doing my dumbbell circuits.
11. I used to really be a social butterfly. I was all about the next event, the next good time. I'm not that way anymore. I have been so hurt and let down by people. I'll go to places where I'm in a comfortable setting. But if there is the possibility of me feeling lonely or embarrassed, I'm out. I was reminded of that tonight. Square dance in a community center. I already was a little uneasy knowing my lack of ability to dance unless alcohol has been consumed. I struggled to find parking and by the time I was going to enter, the instructor was already barking orders. I knew I was not going to catch up and I'd look like a fool. So I did the only logical thing, I drove to Harris Teeter and spent $85.00 on groceries, and close to half of that was on alcohol. Maybe the years of rejection, deception, and bullshit have finally caught up to me. Maybe I'd almost rather be alone. But deep down, I know that's not healthy. I've been blessed in years passed with wonderful social groups. Now that I'm 40, that's over. I'm supposed to be married by now apparently. I shouldn't need friend groups. I guess I failed somewhere, because why else would I still be here in this apartment alone?
12. Thank God for music. It'll never turn away from me or reject me. I call on it, and it doesn't judge, it doesn't walk away, it is reliable and true. People will never be that way. Never.
13. I'm going to make enemies in my life. Why? Because I feel I have to stay true to my beliefs. If I don't have my integrity, I truly have nothing.
14. Shipt is such a joke now. We lost Lidl and Harris Teeter delivery only orders. And yet they keep on hiring more and more people. I used to make $1,000 a month part time. Now I'm lucky to get $400. They got a deal in place now with Food Lion and yet it rarely comes up. Time for this company to fire a few shoppers who suck at it.
15. Midterm elections are in 3 days. Like any of it matters. The Democrats will still them anyway. And as long as the likes of Brandon are in office, we Americans will continue to suffer.
16. These Manscaped products are pretty unbelievable.
17. Apartment has new blinds and new windows. Pretty nice. Of course, my smoke alarm has been beeping for a full month and they still haven't come to fix that....
18. I do like Life church as an online church. Granted the music is your typical overproduced stuff. Oversinging the words, too much production. But Pastor Craig gives good relatable messages.
19. I went to the first Virginia Beach Seafood Festival in October. Had a great time there. Thankful for Yelp for getting me access to places like this. The seafood boil, the fish tacos, the crab dips, the jumbo shrimp and andouille sausage skewer, the orange crush drinks from Watermans. Good times!
20. I'd love to have a dog again. I just can't bear to leave one alone for 8-9 hours a day while I am at work.
